Thursday, November 23, 2006
maybe sometimes we really have to listen to our friend's advice.
i always thought that im right bout someone.
however , im wrong AGAIN.
telling me something discouraging once you talked to me - that's FUCKING MEAN of you .
you have now become my acquaintance.
goodbye.
Thursday, November 16, 2006
did three tests last week.
got back two of the papers.
results were bad.
i did well for one paper but second look at it, i think the lecturer marked it too leniently !
-which is not good as you wont know where you have gone wrong.
my math is getting bad to worst! did improve... like 5 marks- come on man.. taking the average of it i get 2.5 for a 25 marks paper! that's like the worst result i have gotten in my life yet.
it's gonna be hard.
it's gonna be very hard for me to at least get a Satisfactory grade for math.
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had forensic paper today(first paper)
sometimes i think that just go with your gut-feeling, it will never go wrong.
dont look back, be firm bout your decision.
i shouldnt be itchy-handed. =(
now i think my aim of getting nice grade for it has poof- gone!
i am jealous.
i am jealous.
i am very jealous.
why is everyone doing better than i do ?
am i not working hard enough?
am i so stupid?
am i just born dumb?
is my brain failing?
is my concentration in studying disminishing?
why is everything not going as smoothly as everyone thought so?
so many questions to answer.
God , Please help me!
Saturday, November 04, 2006
oh dear... life has nv been better after i start school ! why is this so?! tests, tests, tests , cram ,cram and cram. lots of things to study and do within a short period of time. im getting pessimistic each day . there's nothing that can cheer me up. NOTHING - whatever i have tried to make myself feel better ,didnt workat all. i feel exceptionally dumb, useless and clumsy. issit really true that i am like this or im pessimistic? well, i really dunno. and seriously, i dont mind seeing a psychiatrist to find an answer for myself. or maybe i should confide in God to find an answer. TIME will tell everything - i hope.
i hate this winter season cos i was too late to get the summer clothes that i wanted to get online! Grrr... maybe im fated to save money ! freaking broke - everything is not on the bright side.
i need to fork out more time. my time management is really bad ! -poof- and even if i plan my timetable, i dun follow it. WHY?! wat is wrong with me?! im nv like that . i guess that's wat ppl has been talking bout .. '' as we grow older, we will change'' . i gotta find a way man . a way to help myself to break free of all these shit !
