there's miscommunication between my roomie and i. im lucky to say that it's not major miscommunication which will lead to quarrels.

holidays is near(for me, at least one or two days more?) so we need to like shift things out of our room. roomie has ended her exams like last week? and poor me, im still struggling to finish one more paper! and i cant study with sucha messy environment! it just makes me wanna clean it, clean and dust-free! so i called her,

me: hey, when are you coming back to pack your belongings?

her: oh, maybe next monday?

me:okay.

-pause-

me: anyways, do you have any boxes?

her: yeah, i do. in the room.

-had a long pause again-

me: where got ?
oh! my dear roomie, im referring to BOXES. not BOXERS!

her: ohhh. yarh, i was thinking how come you need boxers for?

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another miscommunication happened last semester- i guess.

i was hungry and i had like instant miso soup. I like it with rice and it happened that no one was out except her. so i gave her a call.

me: where are you? can you do me a favour?

her: JP.

me: can you help me get a packet of rice?

her: okay, can. but where?

me: any of the stalls lor.

after 45 mins, she came back with bags of stuffs. and she told me it was very heavy.i took a look, no wonder lahhh .... she bought a packet of UNCOOKED RICE GRAINS!

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i think cos we have different cultures? so she doesnt understand what i was referring to?

AN UBER LAME JOKE FROM AMANDA'S BLOG.

There were four buddhist monks who played instruments and chanted everyday.

One fine morning, a lady in a mini skirt went into the temple to pray. When the lady knelt down to pray, one of the chanting monks saw the lady tsao k'ng.

The monk was shocked to see that the woman was not wearing any panties! He felt he had to share this valuable insight with his fellow monks, but also did not wish to alert the lady.

So he began chanting the message: "Wu lang bo chin nai ko...."

The monk beside him was playing a tambourine, and he thumped this response: "Ti-to-lok, ti-to-lok"

The third monk, playing a horn, replied: "Duuu... Duuu........"

Finally, the last and the most righteous monk, sounded his cymbals in disgust: "Ti ti kua... ti ti kua! "



-what the hell... -

i need help. i dont think anyone can help me. i just feel giddy, sleepy and restless! nothing can perk me up. am i suffering from some illness? i hope not !
i need to wake myself up in order to concentrate on my last two disgusting papers! now that almost everyone in my level of this blk has went home, i thought i can study better. however, i think because my room is so messy -- it jsut makes me wanna faint! it's so irrtiating. it really bothers me when the environment is bad.

my mom scolded me for complaining to her that i cant do my paper on thurs. im just telling her the truth since she asked me how was the paper? did i do something wrong? that makes me feel even more bad that im cant concentrate and study. goshh! i need You, Lord! Bless me with all the wisdom!

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ahhh ... i love fred perry's shirts! they are so nice especially the guy's clothings! if only, i m a guy and have the build to wear those nice shirts! cool shit lah.

cleared two papers and left three more to go. how great is it? i screwed up my second paper. i didnt have enough time to study, more like i didnt plan my studying time properly? after my first paper on tue, i did not have to mood to carry on studying. and the consequences is the grades for the second paper.
(wells, it 's over. move on! )
lesson learnt : study hard for the rest of the papers!

i ve been very ... weird these days. not weird. i dunno what word to describe how i feel.or am i like 'sick' of my friend?
words to her: if you are really a friend to us,then you would have asked if we need dinner or whatsoever. isnt it right to say that? now ppl have the picture that you re interested with this new targetted guy, and thus neglected your other friends who you were onced close to. are we like spare tyres to you? use us when you need to get close to someone? and now you got it, you forget bout the rest? and you can say that you arent interested in him, but 9 out of 10 people think otherwise. AND ... dont forget that you know one of our friends likes him. how would she feel? it's not saying that we cant talk to that guy cos one of our friends likes him, but know your limits. dont let people change their point of view of you again. you have improved your attitude a lot last sem but now ... i ve got nothing much left to say to you. think bout it.

have to start cleaning up the room. and pack everything into boxes. when hol starts, it's time to GO HOME! miss home quite a lot. i miss my bed at home! i cant sleep well in school. backaches, eyebags... and a lot more. if only my papers end early.

am i thinking too much again? i think i should clarify it one day. weird feelings are back again to haunt me during this exam period. goshh , i cant believe it.
i knew that i should be clear cut, and stop this from happening. we had a lil chat ytd night ...

me:hey,long time no see!
him: yeah
(and he spreaded his hands wide open like a cross)

and it took me a while to realise that it was a hug. and obviously, i didnt give him one.

me: oh you want a hug?
him: i thought that what all people do when they havent seen each other for so long?

hmmm.. at that point of time, i just want to go back to my room and sleep asap. so i didnt entertain him.

oh i guess im jsut thinking too much lah .

after two attempts, i finally passed my driving test on the third attempt! i was so lucky! Have to thank God for it. the weather was bad like the second time i took, or even worse. however, i made it through. it was unbelievable cos the tester was like asking me is this your first time or ..? i was so afraid that he will say, " well, if this is your first time then try again next time!" the way he calculated the points really took quite some time which makes my heart pump like @$^$%!! and it was so hilarious during the test. my left leg were trembling very badly when it was half clutch and i couldnt control the tremble-- that was really,really freaking the hell outta me that i might fail again! everything turn out smoothly in the circuit for the first time. the past few attempts in the circuit, i made terrible mistakes and cos of that i failed.most people will think that it is quite ridiculous to fail in the circuit.really glad that i didnt waste my money again this time round. and i am really really glad that i dun have to see the instructor again. I DONT LIKE HIM! i think he thinks that im stupid, stubborn, poor and i dont know lah. stupid cos i dun have common sense? stubborn cos i dont listen to him? poor cos he looks down on my dad(he knows my dad) who works as a driver? in fact, he did not tell me a lot of things i need to know bout the car before my test. the second attempt that i failed was because of the rear windscreen as it was raining. then he told me tt actually i have to press this button to clear the fog or rain drops. oh goshh , i was like HUH?!? now then u tell me this!? there were a lot more which i cant rmb. anyway it's over! time to get a car! ( yeahrite.. that's most likely impossible)

exams start next tue, ending on 2nd may. got this long 'break' btw two papers. good in a way, bad in a way. im so slack this sem. i rmb that last sem i was worried sick bout the grades, the exams and any other thing. NOW, hahaha. i m still worried but you dont see me carrying out what i should do. things are easier said than done-- it's true! procrastinator! hoho.

my plans for the hol is out! im not going for any overseas trip with my friends cos my mom doesnt allow me! i spent toooo much money alr :( it's okay, cos i admit that i realy spent a lot. i should work more and save even more!

for the past few trips in the train to school, i have seen some loving couples. goshh, they are so sweet( esp malay couples).e.g. the guy will trim the nails for the girl... this is like the sweetest thing i have seen lah. carrying the bag of your partner is nothing- serious. and i have seen the guy sweeping off the rain drops on the girl's clothing. i dont think anyone will ever thought of that. maybe they will care more about themselves if they are wet or not. true?? i dunno. yeah so far, this is my thought.


and i really miss my hammie! im delighted to see a small purple moth flying ard the grave of hers! looks like she has found happiness in the another place((:

i finally decided to let her go after seeing her suffer for days.

it all started like this...
she was fine until i found out that she had diarrhoea. at first i thought, it was wet tail again so i gave her the medicine she once took before. 2 days later, her diarrhoea was cured. but then she still didnt want to drink water and that really worries me. i hestitated to bring her to the vet since she was still able to eat. and after that diarrhoea, i noticed that her fur around her ass was like shedding. and scrutinizing her ass , you could notice that there were some stuffs growing. However, i think it was okay. next observation- she lost weight(not tremendously but slowly) and so i thought it was ageing. a common sign of hamsters moreover she's like bout to hit 2 years old in a few more months. few weeks later, she eats very little and usually she will rush towards the food and chew them or store them in her cheek pouch. however, things didnt look like what it should be. she didnt even bother bout it or it took her sometime to realise that the food was placed there. and in some cases, she can eat and the next few secs, she was resting! you can see how lethargic she was. and i thought again- ageing! fine.. so that's another excuse for me not bringing her to the vet. and after a few more days... things got worst. she cant walk! she was dragging her lower body. Using her full might to push herself forward using her front legs! and i thought again that maybe she has injured her hind legs. i blame myself for hestitating as i kept thinking it's ageing. so it's okay ... sooner or later she will leave peacefully. i am a selfish bastard! i should have brought her to the vet IMMEDIATELY! not until today that i feel that she has shrunk to a slightly bigger size of a 12ml correction pen! it was just the fur that makes her look fluffy! she was so light when i carried her in my arms before she see the vet. she was having spasms. the conditions were unbelieveable painful for me to see! her legs were twitching without the body moving! she cant control her body! she cant flip herself over when she laid on her back! there's once she was even ' twisted'! trust me! it's so painful to see her like that. we have to use our hands to flip her body over. the diagnose was that she suffered from a breakage of spine which causes her to lose control of her lower body. she looks totally fine and bright (which deceived me and stopped me from bringing her RIGHT away to the vet). she was one month to 2 years old, her bones were brittle and fragile. a slight lil fall could have been the caused of this. uncontrollable tears just came pouring down as the diagnose was told. painkillers can be fed to sustain and stop the pain however the crucial period is the next 48 hours which i CANT take it anymore and thus i decided to put her to sleep!

i think that im a murderer. i know that animals cant talk and we, humans have to make the decision for them. I was very sad to see her go. i felt inhuman for a minute as i was heading back to hall from home as one less burden to worry bout. i hope that God will forgive me for what i have done. hope that God will be by her side in the other paradise. forgive me, my Lord.


to my beloved hamster,meowmeow, i will always remember you! love you!
02042007 . 1200nn .

im sorry .

she loves james morrison,
alanis morrisette,
the killers,
kaiser chiefs,
john mayer.
she wishes to have her friends
around her when she is down,
hope to find out her aim in life.
she thought that one day ,
she might or want to become a chef,
a hairdresser,
a road sweeper or
a farmer...



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betty
chloe
the angry people
dern
evelyn
hingman
kame
karebu
kimmm
melissa
moey
samm
seok





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